I am so, so grateful for my healthy, strong, beautiful, intelligent baby girl! I'm so thankful her little body and mind are so healthy and strong, and I'm thankful for her natural curiosity. I'm thankful for her spitfire personality, she's just absolutely hilarious. Above everything I'm thankful she's mine forever. I'm thankful for how she's changed my life in every way possible, in the most amazing way. She's my whole world, and I wouldn't go back and change anything that led to her being here. All the heartache was well worth it, and I feel like somehow it's made me appreciate her even more. It's taught me that through great trials and sorrows come the pure joys in life. A lesson I need to never forget.
Something very special happened to me today, and I feel the need to share how something so simple has changed my life. A couple posts ago I went on a vent of sort on my ex and his new girlfriend. How I was still so bitter about everything that's happened, how I was treated, and that she's having a girl too. Well today as I was on my facebook I noticed a message had come through. Not really thinking anything of it --I mean, why would I?-- I clicked to see I had received a message from said ex's girlfriend. It was a sincere, heartfelt apology on everything that has happened. Her reactions, her anger towards me, the way she handled things. I had to take a few hours to think about what I was going to say. The email was so unexpected and I'd never really thought about what I would say if I had the chance. Well, not in such a positive situation, anyway. So I thought about it and sent a letter back, accepting her apology without being a pushover but without being harsh at the same time. Anyway, it's been a huge weight lifted off my chest. I feel like I can breathe a little easier, and I think we both really, really needed that freedom. I do, however, still harbor some jealousy. I think that's something I'll have to get over in time, something that won't go away over night. But this has absolutely been a step in the right direction for me. I feel like it's a giant leap towards the moving on process, and I'm definitely on the way to finally healing and just getting the heck over it!