Thursday, November 22, 2012


Okay, so maybe I got a little sidetracked and completely forgot to do the full "22 days of thankfulness thing". But! I have so very much to be grateful for, today and everyday. Here's a little list I've come up with of things in my life I'm just so thankful for:

1. The first one is def a given. I am eternally grateful for my brilliant, healthy, strong, feisty, strong willed, positively gorgeous daughter! My Sophia is everything to me. She saved my life, and without her my life would be utterly meaningless. I love her so much, and spending her first Thanksgiving with her was such a joy!

Also, I just have to say I made her dress this year, and it was so stinkin' cute, oh my gosh!

2. I'm grateful for my amazing, supportive family. Most single moms out there don't have the never ending support from their family, but I do. I don't think I could do this without them. Even if I could, I wouldn't be half the mother I am. Not only do they help me financially and emotionally, but they bless my daughter because her mom is not a stressed one.

3. I'm grateful that on cold nights like this one I have a warm, cozy house and the best bed ever to sleep in. With the cutest little girl to snuggle up to. 

4. I'm grateful for my sisters! My best friends, whom I couldn't live without. Laughter is the best medicine, and man do those girls make me laugh!

5. I'm grateful for my brothers. Such sweet boys, and what great examples! They always have my back, and even though we all fight like crazy, we love each other and would do anything for each other.

6. Above all, I'm thankful for my Heavenly Father and the gospel. I know with my whole heart it's true. God has been good to me, and has blessed me in so many ways. I'm thankful for the Atonement. I'm thankful that Christ died for my sins so that even after everything, I have the chance to create a new life. One that I can be proud of, and one that my sweet daughter deserves. I'm also grateful that through Christ I was able to completely turn my life around. I owe it to my daughter, she deserves nothing but the best and through the gospel I can give her that.

It goes without saying that I have much more to be grateful for, but list would take days! So, here are the top 6. Happy Thanksgiving everybody!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Day 3 of Thankfulness!

Today I would like to share how grateful I am for prayer. In those times of darkness, when I long for peace, prayer is what provides that for me. When something wonderful happens in my life, and my heart is so full of gratitude, prayer is how I express and give thanks. Very few in people in my life I can tell everything and anything to, but my Heavenly Father is always there for me. I know he hears me and answers my prayers. Too many wonderful and miraculous things have happened to me that I know were because I prayed. I wouldn't be able to deny it even if I wanted to. I wouldn't be where I am today without prayer, I know that with all of my heart.

Friday, November 2, 2012

22 (I think?) days of Thanksgiving! Days 1 and 2.

Day 1.
I am so, so grateful for my healthy, strong, beautiful, intelligent baby girl! I'm so thankful her little body and mind are so healthy and strong, and I'm thankful for her natural curiosity. I'm thankful for her spitfire personality, she's just absolutely hilarious. Above everything I'm thankful she's mine forever. I'm thankful for how she's changed my life in every way possible, in the most amazing way. She's my whole world, and I wouldn't go back and change anything that led to her being here. All the heartache was well worth it, and I feel like somehow it's made me appreciate her even more. It's taught me that through great trials and sorrows come the pure joys in life. A lesson I need to never forget.

Day 2.
Something very special happened to me today, and I feel the need to share how something so simple has changed my life. A couple posts ago I went on a vent of sort on my ex and his new girlfriend. How I was still so bitter about everything that's happened, how I was treated, and that she's having a girl too. Well today as I was on my facebook I noticed a message had come through. Not really thinking anything of it --I mean, why would I?-- I clicked to see I had received a message from said ex's girlfriend. It was a sincere, heartfelt apology on everything that has happened. Her reactions, her anger towards me, the way she handled things. I had to take a few hours to think about what I was going to say. The email was so unexpected and I'd never really thought about what I would say if I had the chance. Well, not in such a positive situation, anyway. So I thought about it and sent a letter back, accepting her apology without being a pushover but without being harsh at the same time. Anyway, it's been a huge weight lifted off my chest. I feel like I can breathe a little easier, and I think we both really, really needed that freedom. I do, however, still harbor some jealousy. I think that's something I'll have to get over in time, something that won't go away over night. But this has absolutely been a step in the right direction for me. I feel like it's a giant leap towards the moving on process, and I'm definitely on the way to finally healing and just getting the heck over it!